Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Sad But Sweet

Thanks to all who privately messaged me wondering where I have been... This month has been an insane month- emotionally, and physically...I got really sick, so sick I actually had to go to the doctor, I usually take a bunch of vitamins, herbs, teas etc. But not this time, I needed antibiotics etc. Also I coughed so much and so hard that I cracked a rib- yes soooo painful, Im all bound up with a white girdle thing lol... But all of this is the least of the problems..

My cousin who I had blogged about with addictions etc. He tried to kill himself, he slit his wrist/forearm. It was a horrible slice too, he needed a bunch of stiches and needs surgery because he cut threw tendons or nerves or something- he needs repair surgery, and now his hand doesnt work... so sad.. ugh, pray for him please. So we were trying to get him into treatment, commited to a psyc. hospital, anything...

And then on top of all that, my wonderful awesome grandma died last week. She raised 6 kids and all her grandkids... She was truly amazing, such a beautiful soul, she will be missed dearly... She died so peacefully, her death I can only describe was "sweet" Its like God carried her home into heaven so sweetly and peacefully... I know I will see her again, so the sadness is not overwhelming... The hope of heaven makes each day bearable :) love you grandma!!!!!!!!!

Psalm 116:15 "Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints."

Shes finally home with the Lord- thats what makes it a precious day, sad, but sweet.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Addictions...UGH...

Ok...Yeah I know, a bummer kind of subject, but a very real issue that I think needs to be addressed. As I type, my alcoholic cousin who I love and adore is once again passed out on my couch. He's so young (32) and just killing himself by drinking himself to death. We have tried to help him so many times. For sooo many years.. It's so hard to watch someone you love, not care, and not want help. I realize you cant help people who don't want help, but its sooo hard to watch people you love destroy their lives. 2 days ago he agreed to check himself into the emergency room because he coughs up blood, poops blood, and has a huge swollen belly due to his liver/drinking, and horrendous stomach pain. He stayed one night at the hospital, and got some tests done, but he still needed more, for tomorrow, but he checked himself out because he wanted to smoke a cigarette... but the cigarette was not really the reason.... several hours later he bought a bunch of alcohol and "back to normal" which for him is throwing up all over the couch, and stumbling down the hallways, falling all over the place, wandering the streets etc.... So why do I share this story? Well I'm sure many of you have family or friends that you love going through the same stuff... Anyone have advice? or even success stories to share? It would be much appreciated.
We are soon planing a family intervention for him.